So many changes

So it's been a while. I know, I know. So I'm back. I promise that I will try harder this time. We made a big move to a new state and also found out we are adding a little bundle to our household. Dad's birthday has come and gone and I felt somewhat lost. I wasn't sure if I should call mom and talk to her about him, or just think about him alone. I decided alone might be best. I miss him a ton, and am so sad when the boys ask questions about him. "J" seems to be thinking about him a lot lately. He asked me questions about why it happened and if he is okay now. I'm so glad I know that he is okay and that I can use moments like that one to tells the boys how I know it to be okay. Whenever I put things together it makes me think of him, and that is good. I loved when we would make projects. It was the highlight of the year, or month, or even week. I think about his funeral and hope that people that were there left knowing how much dad was loved and how much dad loved to serve others. I sometimes wonder if any of those will want to know how we were able to tell dad goodbye without so much sadness. I was so glad that people were able to laugh during the life-sketch. Dad live a one of a kind life, and I can only hope to live as good as he did. I realize that this is short but homework and house cleaning is calling my name.